i'm back

after a month...a lot has changed.. Today is election day. I'm excited. I'm getting ready to head out and vote as soon as my mom comes home from work. My father went earlier today and he said it was packed.


but right now I'm doing draft 2 of my english assignment thats due tomorrow.

I'm tired of school. I can't wait until I graduate...hopefully that will be in summer 2009.

my other half and I are no more..like I said before its not worth it.. and its true. Its not worth it. Now I see what type of guy he is. :o[
I'm sad because I REALLY wanted this relationship to work, but atlas its back to square one for me. I guess it wasn't meant to be.

I can't believe its been two months since I posted on here... I'll be back, just not now.. maybe, this weekend when things have slowed down. As I'm keeping busy with school, and letting my other half go....-its just not worth it anymore...well, it sort is, but, I'm giving 100%, when he's only giving 25-50 %..
:o[

FUN...

I've been having way too much fun this summer...but, in a couple of weeks I'll be on my way back to school.. I can't wait!..
anyways, enough about school.

I really don't have much to talk about...but, I was watching MTV's True Life show "I'm a compulsive shopper."- and yeah, these two young ladies had it bad.

I love to shop...but, not as much as them. I often thought what if me; shopping so much is an addiction that I can't control?, but after watching this show. I don't think I have it so bad.

The most they were spending on a pair of jeans were $300..they were in debt, and they were getting in more debt!

I make limits for myself...,and the most I'll spend on a pair of jeans is $70.00- thats my new limit on jeans. Because I'm starting to buy for quality, and for my size- (which is petite). , instead of style. I

'm tired of spending an arm and a leg just to hem it up after I've purchased it. Which sometimes, I end up spending more money hemming it up then what I paid for to purchase the pair of jeans.

shoes/boots/sandals/sneakers- I have a limit..but, I go for quality too. I hate cheap shoes. Point blank.

Coats/Jackets- I have limits on this item too.. I think you can find a cheaper, AND sometimes a much better looking coat/jacket than the name brand. But, then its always good to slurgpe on a good winter coat so that it can last you for a couple of years.


accessories(belts/necklaces/bracelets/earrings/rings)- I just started wearing necklaces and bracelets, but my limit on all accessories will be about...$50.. or less. I don't know...I don't really the sense in spending tons of money on accessories.

I'll be back...

Yep...its back to school for me in September. I didn't want to go back so soon, but there are no job leads coming my way, and I'm tired of staying home. As each day passes I get stressed. I'm frustrated with myself most of the time, and I need to keep busy.

so this is my plan. Back to school in September, and I NEED TO WORK HARD...It's all caps because I need to read that message each time I log on this site.
But, I'm ready...and Happy to finish my goal...then move on to getting my BA.

It's not working out...

I think I'm going to go back to school this Fall...because, me sitting around waiting for a job to call me back is not happening anytime soon. So I might as well go back and finish it. I have eight classes left to take, and then I'm out of there..

And, to think that I had a job lined up, and the company decides to act crazy with me... Ughhhhhh!
I just want to scream. I'm so stressed out right now.

i can't believe its June....and still no job. To make a long story short, that job was not for me. Especially if the manager has the nerve to try and intimidate me....and then tell me that they're not sure if they're going to hire me because of the tone of voice I used, and it seemed as if I was trying to tell him how to do his job..

wtf?, i believe someone had to tell him.
I called and e-mailed HR on him again to let them know what type of people they have working for him. I also let them know that I cannot work for their company again...I just can't, not the way how I was being treated.

ughhh!

I have so much to write about.

the boy and I are still together. He's busy with school, and work.. He's doing some promotional work now.

Now, with me on the other hand with the job thing. This store is starting to be a joke to me right now.. because, right now I'm calling the corporate offices on them, and they also do NOT pick up their phone. But, I'm going to keep trying, thats the only thing I can do right now. They can't say that I'm a quitter.

Ok..what else?, damn thats it for now. They start working on these articles.

Go get em Girl.

I got the gig!. Now, I'm waiting on them to call me back to let me know which store I'll be working at.

and, my friend and I are an item now. :0]

Where have I been?

I've been around. Trying to maintain as usual. I interviewed at a popular chain store out here on wednesday, and on Monday I go in for the second interview. I guess I did a good job. And, all along I thought I did a bad job...but, I'll see what happens on Monday...Hopefully I'll get it.

So far things have been looking up, even besides the hunting for jobs..but, I've been staying positive and keeping my head up.

I confessed to my friend that I like him, he likes me too. So, I'll see where that leads us at. He also started school last week, and I'm very proud of him. I met his mom the other day too. .Ok so I guess thats a good sign right?

rejected.

so, I've been rejected twice this week. One from a magazine, and another for a customer support job at a popular Dot Com website. It's apart of life, but it seems its been happening a lot lately. Now is the time where you'd think I miss school, but I don't. I'm so glad I'm taking a break from that place.

But, I'm going to keep on moving, and hopefully something will come up for me.

If I hear..

"How is school going?" again.. I'm going to SCREAM..

killing sometime before I try to call my friend back again...

so, this sucks. I applied to an airline company for their customer service position about two months ago. I figured they wasn't going to call me back, because...well I don't have patience to sit and wait for them to call back, so I started looking for another job.

I found a temp agency that helps people find jobs, but I found a temp agency that helps find people in creative fields jobs..-and that person is me. Since I'm in a creative field. I interviewed with the agency a week ago, the guy said he was going to call be asap when he finds something...but, then on saturday the airline company calls me..-umm ok, now I'm stuck. I don't know who to go with. The agency has my interest, and so does the airline company.

I sat down earlier and I made a pros and cons list of both companies. The airline had a lot of cons, as to where the agency would be more beneficial to me in A LOT of ways, especially since I'm a journalist...-its my field, and I'll have more to time to do my writing.

the airline company...is not my field, I don't think I'd be happy there...its a two hour commute, pays about the same or less than what I'd be making at the agency. but my number one concern is my happiness. I need to be happy with whatever I do in life.

I refuse to chase after the money, or just go after a job because well.."it's a job..and it pays"...-no buddy, my happiness comes first. If I'm not happy, then no one is happy..and my unhappyness will show in my work.

I often wonder what makes me people chase after the money?, what is it?.. Is it because the company might be offering you six figures?, the money makes you happy, but you are you REALLY at your job..-0r will you be one of those people after a month at the job you're all like "Damn, I hate this job..I need to get back into my field."- or is the time when you figure out this is not what you're suppose to be doing.

100%

ahhhhhhhhhhhh I just finished a 400+ word article...damn, this was a first..well not the first, but the first thats going to be published. I'm tired of looking at the screen. I can't wait to go outside this week to catch some breeze.

I really do feel like my hard work is paying off. But, I must stay on my [writing] grind.. I have to..especially if I want to make it into this field.

ok ok..enough rambling.. I'm gonna go lay down and relax.

just thinking...

when will I KNOW/FEEL confident in myself... to know that I'm a writer, and I need to get PAID for it. Not saying that I don't have confidence in myself.. because.. a friend of mine wants to be to write a bio for him...and for some of his other people for their new website.. So I'm like cool.. I'm down...but, I was like wait a minute.. I'm going to have to charge you. I gave him the price, so far no respond back. I'll see what goes down. I'm just tired of doing favors for folks, and I'm not getting no type of pay. Especially when I'm writing for a them.(more so a Bio for them, etc).. I know Journalism is a hard field to break into, I'm in it..But, now I feel like I need to get paid..not more for the money, but writing takes up most of my time. I love it..but then I hate it some days. ugh!. my mind is scattered right now. I'll finish this later.

I'm playing the waiting and be patient Game....

And it sucks. I've had this interview with this Airline company going on a month now. This friday will be a month since I've had the interview, and um... so far I haven't heard from the recruiter. My brother is the one who put in my application for me, even though I did it before a few months ago before he did...so my brother called the recruiter last week, and he said I should hear from the guy sometime this week.. so I'm waiting.... waiting...trying to be patient. But its only so much I can take right now.


I'm bored!..but, maybe I should enjoy this little vacation that I have right now. I just cannot stand staying in the house, especially when I'm used of getting up going to school or work. So for me to have down time I feel like time is passing me by. Occasionally I'll go out to catch some fresh air, make a quick run to the store, do some errands...hang out with my friends. Oh yes, I must enjoy my weekends!, because once I get this job I won't be getting weekends off.

I' m going to remain patience, and keep thinking positive.

Happy New Year!

soooo.. 2008 is here. wow, how time flies. I think I had a good year. I learned a few things about myself, realized what I want to do, and what I have to do to achieve my goals. But, I also realize what I have to do for myself.

I think I've come to realization that school is my comfort zone. Because of my life I've been in school. I've had jobs, but I'd had quit them because of school..or I've had summer jobs. So, I really am thinking about taking a semester or a year off from school just to regroup...find myself, and to make some money. This was a hard decision to do because everyone is forever asking me: "So how is school?", and I'll simply response back with "its fine" or something along those lines.

Now I feel like the world is looking at me like a failure if I decide to take a semester or year off from school.

But I often wonder..what if I didn't go straight to college after high school. I'd probably be working with a pretty good amount of experience, and I probably wouldn't feel like a failure right now. But as the say. Things happen for a reason.

Because I know there is a reason as to why I'm choosing not to return back to school. I'm tired of school, and I want/need some money coming in because I want to save some money to make my move to Georgia...someday. Plus I want to work on getting a car too.

I know to some people this might be the best choice I made..but to me I think it is. Maybe, I'll get back in the school groove in the next year or so.