Off the chain...

I can't think of a decent title right now...but whatever.

I'm thinking about taking a semester or even a year off from school. I need some type of income coming in. I'd like to make some moves in the next few years. One of the places I'm trying to go is Georgia..to live.

so I might have put my trips to Georgia and London in 2008 at a halt, so I can work and save up some money to get out of my parents house. They're not running me.. I just need my own space right now. And, these damn tenants above me are not moving out any time soon, so i'm SOL unless I make a move to Georgia. Hell Half of New York is living there right now.

The Day After...Thanksgiving.

I had a blast. I had some good food, and I met some more cousins I didn't know. I spent my Thanksgiving with some new found family in East New York, Brooklyn. They're new found because I just met this year, but My father and their mom are first cousins.. anyways. Twas cool.

I finally met the cousin thats my age with her little family. Sometimes I wonder if that would ever be me. You know..th whole yards- of being a wife, and mother. They were showing their wedding pictures from Florida because they just got married in September and I was about to cry. Number 1 because it was soo beautiful to see a lovely couple, and Number 2 because all I kept thinking about was when is it going to be my time..."When?"
What more can I say?, I don't want to keep dwelling on this topic.-All the pictures are beautiful. I wish them the best, and congratulations.

school talk again.

I’m still here..just chilling..preparing for exam #2 for my political science class that I have next Thursday,

My ex has been contacting me for some strange reason.. I’m like “ok wtf do you want from me?”, “ what do want from my life”.. now he’s e-mailing me asking me why don’t I pick up my phone, and he had the nerve to ask me why did I do that to him. So, I e-mailed him back asking what the hell did I do to you?”, so far no response from him yet.

I’m going to work on getting my driver’s license….again, for the second time now. Hopefully this time they won’t put me on my father’s insurance and force me to give up my permit. I’m going to work on it during winter break, so I’m thinking hard if I’m going to take any classes during the winter session.. ..

but, honestly I’m really am tired of school. I know I’ve said this before, but I really am. Everyone keeps me asking me how school is.. and I tell them. “I’m bored with it”. Its boring, and annoying the hell out of me right now. SO PLEASE STOP ASKING ME ABOUT SCHOOL.

I've been Thinking about just not going back at all.. I really don’t want to be there during the winter, but then what the hell would I be doing during the winter. I just don’t think I can take going to school anymore.

I don’t if its school, or if it’s the professors. My journalism professor is….she’s just… so boring, and no motivation at all. She makes me want to give up journalism. There’s no positive vibes in that classroom with her.

In the mean time I've been applying to a few jobs, mostly airline jobs. I've been thinking about becoming a flight attendant or getting a gig somewhere in the airline industry, I've also been looking into the cruise industry, but this is a story for another time.

Hopefully I’ll make up my mind before January 2^nd 2008.

Follow your heart...

All along I was right. I'm glad I didn't seek nothing more than a friendship from him.

Liars.

Its one thing that I hate, and that is LIARS!. Yes, sometime in our lives we've told a little white lie. You might have been home with your family, and you didn't want to be bothered with people so you don't pick up the phone, or you tell whoever is in the house with you to tell the other person on the other line that you're not home. I've been there...because, sometimes you just don't want to be bothered with people.

But its liars who want cake, and they want to eat too is who I can't stand.

People who lie to get what they want... People who lie to their spouses. People who lie to the lady or man who they're trying to get to be in a relationship with- knowing damn well they got another person on the side. Another word for this is: Playing Games.
And, I hate playing games... I can't stand it.

I think I'm done with dating. I can't be bothered anymore.

Bad Vibes?!

I met a new friend yesterday...she was interesting, but she rubbed me the wrong way. I can't pin point it out yet. But, thats the priced I pay when I agree to attend a show with someone new...but, don't get me wrong, I still had a good time.

She's a friend of the guy's in a group, I got a chance to interview and do a feature for an online magazine. So as soon as I get in the car we start talking.. since she's real talkative!, and I'm not. I just can't be that talkative like some people, but thats her personality so I can't knock her for that. We talk about school, boyfriends, friends, she asked if I go clubbing. I'm like "nope, I don't do the club thing." I might hit up a lounge, but I refuse to step foot in a club, unless its one of my friend's birthday or something else. And, I like to go out and see performances. Thats my thing.

On to the topics of boyfriends. I don't have a boyfriend. Her response: "awwws, why". I tell her the story about how I Just broke up with boyfriend a few months, and I tell her the reason why we broke up.. why can't I just be single?, do I need a boyfriend? anyways.

This girl comes off as...a show off, and it seems that as if she likes to tell people what to do. I'm not feeling that at all.

Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that we can't express to each other, or say what's on our minds, but some of the things she said last night through me off. But, maybe thats how SHE is. And, I can't change her.

The Kingdom

Last night I went with some friends, and we saw the new "The Kingdom"...and, now keep in mind that I wasn't interested in seeing this before at all. Even when I saw the previews. I don't know...but, I'm glad I decided to see it. (because my friends couldn't make up their mind as to what movie they wanted to see)- don't you hate that?

but, its a good flick. If you like action movies, and want to know whats going in America and overseas, then this is a must see.

And, I'm used of seeing Jamie Foxx play funny roles, but he really blew me away with his acting in this movie. He did a really good job.

Life...is a beautiful struggle.

Talib Kweli said it best..

He's on point with that line. Lets just say, you live and learn everyday!

SCHOOL is back in session.

And, I'm not happy about it. I think I just want it to hurry up and be over, and continue with my career.

I think I'm starting to hate school. Not that I loved it before, but...I was eager to be in school, but now I'm just frustrated with it. Maybe, it would've been best if I just took some courses in Journalism instead of going for the degree.

But, I have to remember, a degree is worth it in long run. I might not see it now, but I'll notice it once I have that little piece of paper in my hand in a few months. I guess I have to keep on trucking. I just feel that I don't have the drive to continue on anymore.

FREE-Lancer.

This is a word that I have to get used to. I have to get used of being a freelancer. I never knew what it all meant, until now. I've been off.(and loving it...sort of) for about three weeks now.. I don't know when I'm going back, but as long as I Know that I still have a job to back to.

Plus, school starts back up in two weeks. And, I'm NOT looking forward to it. I've been enjoying my summer way too much.. I still have some people to meet, and hang out with.

Natuaral Hair=No in the workplace.

What else new.. I'm so sick of this. I feel like I've been reading the same story over, and over again in different magazines...by different writers. And, its sad.

So, we now have to confirm to society to fit in. I'm not, and I refuse to.

-My hair grows naturally out of my scalp, why in the hell would I want to alter it to fit in. To look like my white counterparts?.... whatever.

I feel good in my own skin, and I'm not trying to change that.
http://jezebel.com/gossip/your-roots-are-showing/glamour-editor-to-lady-lawyers-being-black-is-kinda-a-corporate-dont-289268.php

So, what happen to your magazine?

I get asked this question all the time now. And, honestly its very annoying. I wish I could answer them real bold like this: "I folded the magazine to keep my sanity." Because, well... that is the truth.

I believe if I had more people on my team, my magazine would've been a success, or on its way to being a successful magazine. But, I didn't, and I can't cry over it. It hurts that I had to fold it, but I had to do what's best for me.

At least I tried. Plenty people didn't realize how hard it was to even run a magazine. I ran the magazine with no knowledge of what was to be done- maybe, thats where I'd blame myself, but I read books, and read articles online to see how they run..but, regardless it was hard, especially with one (wo)man running the show all the time.

Even if I had people say "Oh yeah, I'll help you"... they'll just be flakes.. so, I think I did the right thing by letting the magazine fold.

I still write. For other online magazines but at least I'm still letting my name be known, and the most importantly I'm STILL writing. Regardless, of what the outcome was.

I'm still writing, and I will continue to write until my hands fall off.

Newark, New Jersey...

The People in Newark have their own war going on. They can forgot about the war going on in the world, they have their own to worry about.

Tonight, another shooting occured. And saturday night four teens were shot excution style.

I really think Corey Booker is not doing anything to make matters better. It's like he's just watching from the side. Letting things slip through the cracks. This year, the shootings in Newark are up to 60.

read the story here: http://www.forbes.com/feeds/ap/2007/08/07/ap3993194.html

An interesting read on Hip-Hop producer Disco D...

http://www.villagevoice.com/nyclife/0731,matthews,77404,15.html/full

what's in a name...

so why the name Dread in Brooklyn...or even Brooklyn Dread... its only because I was born in Brooklyn, NY and currently my hair is locked. what I like to call them Dreadlocks.. The real thing. No re-twisting, beeswax, or latch-hook touches my head.


its a lot of things that I want to talk about, so I felt that it was appropriate to start a blog....another blog.

I love writing, so I might as well get another blog to do just that.. Write & Express my thoughts/views on the world.

Baldwin Hill....Ok, this is my first time watching it. I hope its good.

the beginning..

I'm back at it again..Maybe, I'll do better this time... until next time...peace.